I found out at the end of January 2013 that my cancer had returned and was now stage 4 (in my lung, liver, and the lymph nodes of my stomach). I have spent most of 2013 in a hospital room with lots of time to think about what I am going to do.
I wake up day and night thinking about my little ones and what will happen to them if mommy doesn't fight to stay alive for them. Then I break down and think of the things I would miss out on if I didn't fight (both proms, graduation, weddings, grandchildren, maybe even great grandchildren). Then I start thinking of plans I have and want to make. I have so much to live for and I don't want my time to stop.
I have a wonderful support system. My parents have stepped in and help get them to and from school. They are doing all the the things I should be doing. May god bless them!
As for the other parent, their BF, I thought he was going to be supportive.......
I thought he was going to have my back (like he said he would).......
I guess I was wrong about that and about other things he has said. Oh well guess I will pick those battles as they come.
A little about my past history, back In 2008, I had stage 3 Breast Cancer. I went through the double mastectomy, chemo, and radiation. Then the wait for the 5 year "your good" check up. But mine never came. On January 1st I was diagnosed with pneumonia. It didn't get better and I started not to be able to eat or drink and then was so weak. I went to see a doctor for my stomach and he did a CT scan and there it was... mets in the liver. After several tests and painful waiting they now knew what was wrong with me. So now I am fighting cancer again. I hope I can be here for my children to grow up. I go for chemo every 3 weeks for the rest of my life and I am okay with that. ANYTHING to be here for my little angels!
So if I could give advice to moms everywhere it would be 3 things......
1. Hug tighter and longer!
2. Make memories not plans....
and 3. Don't take anything for granted. Life's to important to be stressed all the time.
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